16 Aug New Normal
Hi, It’s me. Bisa. Do you remember me? I pop in every so often and write something. When I write my elevator pitch or attempt to tell people what my blog is about, I stumble over my words. I don’t know what the blog is about. I want to write about travel. I would also like to monetize my page and became a successful blogger. I struggle with understanding SEO, keeping up with all of the tools, and writing the right posts that people care about. I have over 50 blog posts in the draft on my computer.
One of the problems is that I created this blog weeks after finishing treatment for breast cancer. I was working full-time and raising three teenage girls. I was barely keeping up with any of it. Then I decided to enroll in online graduate school to get a Masters degree in Creative Writing. I quickly had to reduce my course load from two classes to one. It has taken an extra year for me to complete. I’m happy that I stuck it out, and I’m currently working on my thesis.
Now all three girls have graduated high school, and two are off to college. I finally feel that I can concentrate on what I want to do. For the first time in a long time, I’ve been able to do that. It is a scary and exciting position to be in. I’ve also had something lingering over my head for three years. The fear of cancer coming back.
I know everyone sees me climbing mountains. Something I have yet to write about on my blog: I’m still traveling when I can. Everything looks like it went back to the way it was. I think for a while I tried to pretend things were the same. Not that things were good back then. Finding out that I had breast cancer happened at I time that I needed to make changes in my life. Cancer gave me the push that I needed.
This post is starting to become me rambling on and on, but I rather have that than not writing at all. There are days all I want to do and lay in bed and watch TV. I don’t think I’m depressed. I’m tired. I’m being working full-time and taking care of other people for over twenty years. Sometimes I want someone else to make the decisions.
I haven’t been finishing any post because I’m attempting to write about things that I should write and not what I want to write about. I’m going to write the 10 ten things to do post and share my reviews about places, but I have to write it my way.
So my new normal is sometimes I write on my blog, and sometimes I stay in bed all day and watch Medium reruns and Man vs. Food episodes. I hope those who have been with me from the beginning are still there and those who are new to Myles To Travel stay with me as I figure it out.